...it seems that's what my blog has turned into!! Unfortunately, I've always been the kind of person who would rather listen to other people's life stories then discuss my own. Even in conversations with people, I always find myself listening to their lives and always just answering "just fine" when asked how I'm doing. I always wondered why that was...
Anways...February has been a rollercoaster and March is turning out to be worse...but I keep going forth, I keep loving, I keep trusting, I keep the faith, I keep my sanity....It's not easy, even though I keep telling myself each day that it is, but in days like these I find myself asking if I'm lying to myself, or if really...I am "just fine".
The days are getting longer....the sun is setting now and it's really blinding me, but I find myself rejuvenated by that...as if the rays are embracing me, telling me that it's going to BE fine. I always wonder how people with no faith go through dark times in their lives...how do you go on when things don't really go the way you would like them to, even somewhere deep inside you don't believe that God has EVERYTHING in control, including your pathetic problems which in the bigger scheme of things, really....are peanuts. Whenever I get gloomy with the state of my life (paraphrasing from one of my favorite movies), I find myself turning on the news and realizing how blessed I really am, even in the midst of my pain...others are suffering even more...and I find myself being grateful for my life. And so...I pick my chin up, I play w/ my newly purple hair, I write a blog that my friends will read and realize that I am very blessed to be a child of God!!!
No comments:
Post a Comment